Good afternoon Bloogie,

It's been awhile since i last wrote to you.

I'm glad my 7 days straight of job is over. It all happen due to a new guy went MIA.

But it's ok becouse bf was there to make my days fly fast. I'm glad it's done now. As for

now i'm very happy that my i will be reuniting with my bff once again.Soon will be

with maysif i can't wait for that to happen. I miss having to lough out loud with them.

I'm waiting for bf to wake up. His sleeping like a baby, can't blame him tho just look

at the weather it's been raining all week.That's all i have to tell u for today bloggie.

Goodbye.

 Woohoo bloggie, look! Blame this splurge to my BF.  Release a lil bit of my stress while shopping girly stuff. I usually do buy maybelline,loreal and even silkygurl which i still do. But i keep on thinking if i top up another 20 bucks i can buy a better compact brand.  So when i bought MAC, i said to myself. Damn! Its 50bucks and Dior is just another 30 bucks away. And u know what bloggie. It's been ages since my aunt from Oman bought it for me.

 So i shrugged and let history repeat it self when the last time i purchased Bobbi brown and i wanted Chanel instead..But by the end of the day my sis got it for me. Trust me it was awesome. A happy child indeed. Remind me of the time when santa clous bff  surprise me with lots of makeup. Oh she's such a sweetheart.i miss her!

I know i did'nt have the keshing to splurge more,so i walk away and suddenly he stop me and brought me in. I was like what? Are you serious? My wish came true when he swipe that card and i know it's officially mine. Maybe that his way of saying sorry to me. haa! I'm guilty as charge. Now let me judge the beauty tools.

Elizabeth Arden is quite impressive due to the grinding tool. So you only use what u need and it already is a loose powder.It's very hygienic. I don't have to touch up that much but the only thing is there is a hint of bronzer effect.I don't  like it,So that's a minus point.

Bobbi Brown is way too natural. It makes my face looks the same no difference at all. This is good for people who wants to have that light weight feeling on their face. It does keep ur face shine free for me it does only up to 6 hours. Than i have touch up again. Realize that both are loose powder?

Now im gonaa try my new friends. weee! super excited.  So gona remind myself what not to buy to avoid feeling regret afterwards. Bloggie i miss his family,wana meet them soon too. gdbye.

I did finally forgive but never forget.

How do i know if a man really mean his sorry and regret his actions plus when he promise to change. Is that even genuine? How? I don't have any guys friend. All i have is my cousin. Totally puzzle right now.I got sick right after this happen. I tried so hard to ignore you but my stupid hand blindly answer your call. I told you umpteen time that your short temper is not an excuse to treat a lady that harsh. You don't seem to understand the whole point why am so cold towards you.

Don't you even have the slightest clue why am so mad at you? You are selfish! You only think of yourself and no one else. Yes you are faithful, and i thank god for that. But there's a limit where one heart can take. I am so confuse right now to forgive you or not.

Still i know myself very well. Even going out to the clinic my heart was so heavy because i was so used telling you if i am out from the house.  You must change if you want to stay with me. Period.

I tried my best to your short temper,jealousy,accusing me the thing i never thought of doing. Your lies, i must applause you for that because you did it so flawlessly.Your words and actions only god knows how hurt i was. You do thing as and when you like as long u're happy and sastified. I got feeling too you know? You wanted me be only for you. I can't breath under your thumb.




You prefer me to be home at all time. After work straight home. No girl n  guy friends and warn me not to talk to them. But it's not fair when you did everything opposite to me.Why? Maybe you are too used having me around. Or you wanted to be single? When i gave you what you wanted, you promise a million times you will change. God only know how i cried every night and am getting tired but this tears just kept rolling down.




Was it your past? Are you hiding something?  Don't let me be the one suffering for what she did to you. Don't you remember who i am? You wanted me because i was a good girl. So why you are doing all this to me now. I have been proving to you that am strong enough to smile and putting your shits aside. You know i will get back to you. I just wish you change one day.


There's a limit in everything that you do. Disrespecting me twice in front of my family is not something i will be giving in to you today. Sincerely hope once day will change. I am not gonna leave you i am just waiting for you to mean your sorry.

I wish one day i will be the girl who prays 5 times a day. I hope one day my heart will fully open to wear hijab. I want to be soleha and free of sins. I know its not possible. I don't want to be just afraid of God but i need to know how to be a good muslim and practice it. I will try each day slowly to be one. Its not ez neither it is difficult. As for now i know i don't club, drink or smoke but it's not enough. I wanna make my mom the happiest women on earth. Amiin .

2010 and 2011 eid i have not went out with maysif or visit my bff house. I also didn't have the opportunity to go out raya with jaan. We are both very bz with working. We never went out raya wearing matching cloth. Alhamdulillah this year ma family finally did it. For the first we are all wearing the same color. Its okay i didn't make it happen with him at least i'm elated seeing my family looking so gorgeous on the 1st day of raya.

MY Cellphone keep ringing! Dear job, I DON'T WANT TO work tonight. It's my off day. I need my rest. Thank you.

I never fail to smile looking at every children. They remind me when i was young. I wish i could be a little gurl again. I came back from work felt depressed. I forgot how to miss my father. His alive but never there. Sometimes i envy all those kids who have a good father . The stories they told me about their funny and caring daddy. I was sincerely happy to listen, cos i imagine for a moment there it was me. But than just for a while reality crashed back in. I just wana come home and have this sense of a man waiting for me feeling worried why i'm not home yet. A father. ;(

Whom i can talk to and tell him how my boyfriend is doing and coping with his new job. I wish i can tell him that i hope he accept me for who i'm and i hate him for what he had done but still i want him in my life but not all the time. Dear dad,i hate u but i miss u. Take care. Ur little farah fawcett.

But by the end of the day i love ma mother the most. Alhamdulillah .