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2011-12-01T00:53:00.001-08:00

Good afternoon Bloogie,

It's been awhile since i last wrote to you.

I'm glad my 7 days straight of job is over. It all happen due to a new guy went MIA.

But it's ok becouse bf was there to make my days fly fast. I'm glad it's done now. As for

now i'm very happy that my i will be reuniting with my bff once again.Soon will be

with maysif i can't wait for that to happen. I miss having to lough out loud with them.

I'm waiting for bf to wake up. His sleeping like a baby, can't blame him tho just look

at the weather it's been raining all week.That's all i have to tell u for today bloggie.

Goodbye.

2011-10-14T21:05:00.000-07:00

Woohoo bloggie, look! Blame this splurge to my BF. Release a lil bit of my stress while shopping girly stuff. I usually do buy maybelline,loreal and even silkygurl which i still do. But i keep on thinking if i top up another 20 bucks i can buy a better compact brand. So when i bought MAC, i said to myself. Damn! Its 50bucks and Dior is just another 30 bucks away. And u know what bloggie. It's been ages since my aunt from Oman bought it for me.

So i shrugged and let history repeat it self when the last time i purchased Bobbi brown and i wanted Chanel instead..But by the end of the day my sis got it for me. Trust me it was awesome. A happy child indeed. Remind me of the time when santa clous bff surprise me with lots of makeup. Oh she's such a sweetheart.i miss her!

I know i did'nt have the keshing to splurge more,so i walk away and suddenly he stop me and brought me in. I was like what? Are you serious? My wish came true when he swipe that card and i know it's officially mine. Maybe that his way of saying sorry to me. haa! I'm guilty as charge. Now let me judge the beauty tools.

Elizabeth Arden is quite impressive due to the grinding tool. So you only use what u need and it already is a loose powder.It's very hygienic. I don't have to touch up that much but the only thing is there is a hint of bronzer effect.I don't like it,So that's a minus point.

Bobbi Brown is way too natural. It makes my face looks the same no difference at all. This is good for people who wants to have that light weight feeling on their face. It does keep ur face shine free for me it does only up to 6 hours. Than i have touch up again. Realize that both are loose powder?

Now im gonaa try my new friends. weee! super excited. So gona remind myself what not to buy to avoid feeling regret afterwards. Bloggie i miss his family,wana meet them soon too. gdbye.

2011-10-12T20:49:00.000-07:00

I did finally forgive but never forget.

2011-10-12T03:08:00.000-07:00

How do i know if a man really mean his sorry and regret his actions plus when he promise to change. Is that even genuine? How? I don't have any guys friend. All i have is my cousin. Totally puzzle right now.I got sick right after this happen. I tried so hard to ignore you but my stupid hand blindly answer your call. I told you umpteen time that your short temper is not an excuse to treat a lady that harsh. You don't seem to understand the whole point why am so cold towards you.

Don't you even have the slightest clue why am so mad at you? You are selfish! You only think of yourself and no one else. Yes you are faithful, and i thank god for that. But there's a limit where one heart can take. I am so confuse right now to forgive you or not.

Still i know myself very well. Even going out to the clinic my heart was so heavy because i was so used telling you if i am out from the house. You must change if you want to stay with me. Period.

2011-10-10T02:41:00.000-07:00

I tried my best to your short temper,jealousy,accusing me the thing i never thought of doing. Your lies, i must applause you for that because you did it so flawlessly.Your words and actions only god knows how hurt i was. You do thing as and when you like as long u're happy and sastified. I got feeling too you know? You wanted me be only for you. I can't breath under your thumb.

You prefer me to be home at all time. After work straight home. No girl n guy friends and warn me not to talk to them. But it's not fair when you did everything opposite to me.Why? Maybe you are too used having me around. Or you wanted to be single? When i gave you what you wanted, you promise a million times you will change. God only know how i cried every night and am getting tired but this tears just kept rolling down.

Was it your past? Are you hiding something? Don't let me be the one suffering for what she did to you. Don't you remember who i am? You wanted me because i was a good girl. So why you are doing all this to me now. I have been proving to you that am strong enough to smile and putting your shits aside. You know i will get back to you. I just wish you change one day.

There's a limit in everything that you do. Disrespecting me twice in front of my family is not something i will be giving in to you today. Sincerely hope once day will change. I am not gonna leave you i am just waiting for you to mean your sorry.

2011-09-23T06:43:00.000-07:00

I wish one day i will be the girl who prays 5 times a day. I hope one day my heart will fully open to wear hijab. I want to be soleha and free of sins. I know its not possible. I don't want to be just afraid of God but i need to know how to be a good muslim and practice it. I will try each day slowly to be one. Its not ez neither it is difficult. As for now i know i don't club, drink or smoke but it's not enough. I wanna make my mom the happiest women on earth. Amiin .

2010 and 2011 eid i have not went out with maysif or visit my bff house. I also didn't have the opportunity to go out raya with jaan. We are both very bz with working. We never went out raya wearing matching cloth. Alhamdulillah this year ma family finally did it. For the first we are all wearing the same color. Its okay i didn't make it happen with him at least i'm elated seeing my family looking so gorgeous on the 1st day of raya.

MY Cellphone keep ringing! Dear job, I DON'T WANT TO work tonight. It's my off day. I need my rest. Thank you.

2011-09-22T19:45:00.000-07:00

I never fail to smile looking at every children. They remind me when i was young. I wish i could be a little gurl again. I came back from work felt depressed. I forgot how to miss my father. His alive but never there. Sometimes i envy all those kids who have a good father . The stories they told me about their funny and caring daddy. I was sincerely happy to listen, cos i imagine for a moment there it was me. But than just for a while reality crashed back in. I just wana come home and have this sense of a man waiting for me feeling worried why i'm not home yet. A father. ;(

Whom i can talk to and tell him how my boyfriend is doing and coping with his new job. I wish i can tell him that i hope he accept me for who i'm and i hate him for what he had done but still i want him in my life but not all the time. Dear dad,i hate u but i miss u. Take care. Ur little farah fawcett.

But by the end of the day i love ma mother the most. Alhamdulillah .

2011-09-19T03:31:00.000-07:00

Hafta rush to work now. Must get ready asap. Work and life clashes,hate it so much. Niwes i just wana be super flawless super fair. HOW TO? When i don't even have time for myself. Gotta buy a new range of skincare line yet affordable. WHAT IS IT? hmm (clinique no keshing yet.) K GTG. wassalam.

2011-08-30T00:41:00.000-07:00

Went to Bazaar Geylang and it was hectic,

parking was horrible. Just because OF DENG DENG.

I never like deng2. But jus one this night of Ramadhan my big

sister ,bf. Bought for us. I was so famished so i had one.

I fall in LOVE with honey flavored deng2. haha!

So yea! I was like a pregnant women hunting down for it. But sadly

all the deng2 is finish. I just sigh in disappointment. On the way there

jaan's friends wife is pregnant and she crave the same thing.

It was amazing how she did not even brag about it. So i followed her

good example. I'm just a normal fat girl who wants deng2.

BUT SHE was pregnant and craving for it. If i was in her shoe i will cry infront

of the vendor ask for just one DENG2.hehe.

As for now selamat hari raya aidilfiitri

To my Jaan and Family

To BFF wawa and MAYSIF.

NOW iam waiting for my dear sista to pick me up! SHES FREAKING LATE!

Talking to jaan otp . So sad will be working night shift later.

haiz.

2011-06-27T03:13:00.000-07:00

"If you have oily skin don't be sad, cheer up because

our type of skin age much slower."

BEFORE

AFTER

With hard my own hard earn money i finally bought wish list makeup. Sastified with the natural look and overall maintain face. No breakouts and any sorts of blemishes due to irritations. However being sastified, am still searching for the best one yet. The perfect makeup that's totally matt by the end of my 12 hr shift. I usually look too cakey now i feel ma skin is shouting*i can breath!!!* haa! Even when im wearing bb creams. Its just the same. Now i need to find that product which helps to keep ma face shine free all day all night. I know it start with a good regime too. Its not just about the makeup i bought. I'm thinking of clinique 3 step program for oily skin next. That will be my next month wishlist. For now i have to put aside 150 bucks for my kuzzin gathering! AND I CANT FREAKING WAIT.

NIWES...ITS MY BDAE WHEN THE CLOCK STRIKES 12PM TONIGHT.

HAPPY 21ST BDAE TO ME!

Niwes gotta bath now,AM working night shift four four days straight yet again.

No life, i must say.

o god i miss maysif wawa kuzzin n boyfie.

2011-06-09T02:10:00.000-07:00

Dear bloggie u know i feel like i have abandoned my diary for a very long time. I hope they understand why. Its such a hassle. A pen is needed, a table to write, to focus on good handwriting. But here i can even post picture and no effort needed. K already let that out,i felt good. So i just wake up called up haris tell him that im thirsty i wana drink water. Ask him whose voice is that in the background. He told me it was the radio. Ma gawd i just woke up and i start to ask all that. lol. So ask him to take an off on a particular day as my kuzzin book a chalet near uhh i dont know where. So excited man, it's a kuzzin gathering!

Than he went on saying *i already knew* Apparently my sis and mom had told him about it. I guess he is so not good at keeping secret. Now i know i will just have to expect a present from mummy, sista n him. Ty boyfie. -_-' ( what a suprise ! terkejut i)haha! So ya that's my foot from bad to worst. I went to the doctor and he says that its already infected and if the redness is still there meet him once again to refer me n me feet to the hospital. I DONT WANT! I've been eating the antibiotics regularly yet i just hate it when after a few hour when it's time to sleep. MA FEET STARTS TO ITCH LIKE HELL.

I CANT SLEEP THE WHOLE NIGHT. SO typically i would wake up the next day around 5 pm than fry some nuggets bath and go to work. No life again for the next 4 days. YUP night shiftie again,haiz. O! MY SIS is sho swueet!!! She was like if u have to go to the hospital i will send you. I know she got no time but it;s the tots that counts. By the end of the day i know the Boyfie who labelled me tempang gurl will send . haha! Doctor say no running. No jumping. The last time i remember running is when boyfie fetch me from work and i started running like budak cacat towards his vehicle. So ya. That's the story of my life. I reckon i wont be updating for a long time. So gdbye bloggie i will miss u.

2011-06-06T02:18:00.000-07:00

This will be a very short post plus of course incomplete haha! I just wana say that i dreamt bout Siti,wawa,filzah and fathin plus now i remember it was zah,rid,zal n fah n ila with loya in my blurred dream. I reckon its due to do missingtoomuch side effects.OMG. I must spend extra time with my sister. We have not met or talk for almost 4 days now. With alternate shift it's impossible to strike up a conversation. Put aside that i also can't wait to have my own house. With gorgeous table top complete with an oven plus a huge gorgeous black fridge. I want a freaking comforter on my fully decorated gold embedded sheet cover. was that even right farah? haha. Ahh! A girl always wish to get married ,for me it's having my own house. I will save up and work really hard. I imagine how unlucky ma hubby is. To arrive home and to be greeted with his wife with the horrible clay mask on my face.SO UNGLAMoROUS. But u love me,fair play u have to accept it.watever.Oh! For now i can't stop dreaming baking in my gorgeous kitchen with absolute Love.

Regards to my burned foot. It's suppose to be okay after 3 days right? But mine is still swelling ma gawd reddish uhh red? lol! K THE SAME I KNOW. Its red lahh,i must say. Hell ,now its darn itchy . I showed it to my mom. She went like *shouting mode* "I told you to go to the doctor! What did i said? Before it gets INFECTED." Now it is. And i replied (u might have guess it) "I have no money ma pay is still on its way ummi!" "Now what did i say,i will give you first! Right? Here i give you 30 bucks tomorrow You head on and see the doctor."

OK . That's my incomplete story will re update dear bloggie once i feel like it. Now i need to scratch my itchy... ohh wait...don't tell mummy she will killlllll me...-_-'

2011-06-05T02:24:00.000-07:00

Wow, As always i never fail to say if you are working night shift,heck you have no life.

Wake up at 6 get ready to go work. Reach home at 9am, sleep for a few hours. Alarm clock at 6 and head back to work. I didn't have the opportunity at all to go for my great kuzzin wedding.Boy was i disappointed. I truly do miss ma kuzzin effing much. Today boyfie went to a wedding i feel like *wth*. Pretty much envying him the moment i woke up.

So for night shift i ate This cuty up there! I love salad so much. Fruits and other healthy food but why can't i have that slim body huh? haiz. Got that at cheer. I must say it's too pricey for just cabbage,cubic biscuits(forget what's the name) and chees flake with a delicious souce for 2.78 i think. I gotta head to mustapha and buy all the stuff and save a whole lots of money. So bored of eating rice. Under my mom monitoring i have not been suffering from gastric for a month now. HURRAY! Her text everyday are like* u dah makan?* if i never reply she will call. And i will reply nanti kat keje makan. In an instant she will start rambling bout how i must eat rice everyday. Which i have been doing so. Haiz,fatty farah coming ur way kiddos.

My brother bought this for me when iwas craving for a salad. This is way cheaper. But like i say i will buy ma own stuff and make my own salad that way i can personalize it to my own liking.hee! See below! that's my awesome foot.OMG RIGHT? haha. I was really hungry so i cook myself the ever so famous maggi, blame it to my butter finger i didn't realize i place the bowl half side of the table. In just a second the hot soup topple on my foot. This was the first day. It looks reddish at first. Than it hurts like hell when everytime it came in contact with water. I apply toothpaste so i can shower an hour without crying. Yet the pain didn't subside.

The second day it's much more redder and let me say this ma foot is now a vampire.haha! Every time when the sun shine gorgeously my foot starts BURNING!!. I frantically find any place where i can stand under the shade. Now mummy ask me to meet the doctor she said it's suppose to tone down. She's afraid it might be infection. So i guess for a month having the winning trophy for being healthy. So now,i must give it back to my momma. She always stays healty. Gotta call up my aunt and purchace my vitamin c and iron right away once ma pay is receive.

For now toodle dear bloggie. Oh ya i think im interested in the clinique 3 steps products. But it's too expensive. Everyone saying it's really good. With oily complexion its more recommended to buy the gel moisturizer . So maybe that would be in my next month shopping list.hhehe!Plus i wana try to put natural yogurt on my face and see how it turn out. HEE! bye!

2011-06-01T23:18:00.000-07:00

OMG ! Iam suppose to be sleeping . Tonight ure gona work ur ass off!

Farah ure so gona need toothpicks to open ur sleepy eyes in the wee morning .

haha! So while trying to force myself to sleep i suddenly have this rush of excitement due to ma pay. My mind cant stop thinking bout makeup n stuff that i need to buy. -_-

Please forgive me,pay. I need to splurge more this month. Since i turned 18 i did a little investigation. I found myself a shocking truth. I've been purchasing makeup wrongly. I used to think that i saved money buying drugstore product. I'm not suggesting it not good either. My sister did bought , 3 face face powder. It works pretty well on my face. Its just that when me n ma gf siti ,rave on the sephora foundation compact powder.

I jus had to buy it,than came the ZA pearly white shine product which boyfie bought for me. I was thinking to myself plus both up i can buy myself an elizabeth arden product right?

I adore makeup that look more natural,so i usually tightline with my bobbi brown black pencil. it does work well but it never stay for the whole day. I got to retouch my waterline repeatedly. So i promised to spend 10 more bucks extra just to have a better one.

Especially liquid eyeliner for me is always a no no. Because i tend to lough and than cry at the same time.haha! I hate that so much and my black eyeliner is either gone or smudge. eww or urgh!

Is there any good waterproof eyeliner?

I tried mac wawa angel gave,but still it fail my tears test miserably. So the motive is to just add 10 or 20 bucks to get the best product. I already have my list and i sincerely cant wait to go shopping! IT HAS BEEN SO LONG SINCE i last hold 6 shopping bag or more from different stores. o wait...JUST ONE problem. I STILL have no idea where can i buy TIME?

-_-' Goodnite again. Ma stomach is grumbling,hush baby u will eat soon.If daddy is sending u to work if not. Md is 24/7 no other option.

2011-06-01T06:30:00.000-07:00

Hello Bloggie, see me saddie facey.

Boyfie with frendie under the blockie, me very boardie,me got no fweny.

So menie bloggie bout my lifey. All buzybee with workie i stayie homie

cos tomorrow nightie shiftea.

Its not that impossible to read. Right?haha!

It means i am staying home as i'm doing night shift tomorrow and everyone is so busy with their life i don't want to disturb them as well. Got 3 missed call Lastnight.

One at 1am the other 2 at 7.18 am . I was sleeping i tot it was boyfie, so i rang him up. Than i realized, it's the spirit of OT calling me.

I jus had to turn it down, was too shag. The deal is to work four days a week,the goal is to work 2 time of OT per month so ma pay will be estimated around 2k. I did one. If i work straight twice, My nightie shiftie will be a disaster.

Getting cought red handed sleeping on ur desk is so not cool.haha!

Honestly there's no management during nightie shiftie but still it's not nice doing it towards my colleague.

I request for a leave due to kuzzin's wedding

i probably might not get it. Let's see what mere destiny decide for ma future.

I miss kuzzy lots. Well i stayed home and was inspired from all this youtube makeup tutorial.

SO,

i start doing ma own stuff too. Regards to the eyeshadow i just have so much fun mixing and blending the brown ,gold,black and gray color altogether.

Tot meeting boyfie tonight so getting ready with his tshirt on. Unfortunately he utter the word tired . Suddenly a deep sad feeling washed over me.* dramatic*

I'm being super understanding right now.hee!

We all need sufficient rest i simply am aware of that. :)/:(

I can't wait for my pay i NEED.........

TO BUY LOTS OF STUFF. Plus pay a Huge sum of 2 month bills.

Ma face soap will survive for 2 more days only. -_-'

I hope i can find the precious time to buy my stuff that i can barely live without.

Oh dear time,Where can i buy time?

I Never break rule no 1.

My regime, wash face asap or before sleeping. Clean face ready to go sleep,

see how makeup can transform u from an

ugly duckling to a princess.

Orang tua selalu cakap make up kasi

muke nampak tue. *i tk setuju cik puan* BWEEEK!!! kamu silap,

kalaupandai jage muke,mesti tk nampak tue punyer.

Selamat Malam.

2011-05-30T06:54:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow the spirit to work hard will finally open it chapters. I like the way it sounds.

Ot.

Equal to overtime. Even though the particular day was suppose to be an off day.

I guess i don't really mind the tiredness as the very next day will be the starting of ma first night shift,everything is so new to me. I reckoned as i just joined,so that make perfect sense.

I miss my fellow family,kuzzin,maysif and bff. I so cant wait for raya.

haha! I saw my dear filzah n dam i was elated,imagine if i were to see ma tall guy.

faizal n fariid this gurl named zah i remember how we use to communicate by just using face expression. aint that cool?

Oh dear i miss ma young days where i can be so careless. So unresponsible

But now to keep a job u gotta refrain from following what ur heart desires. When you're reckless you only got your self to blame. That sucks

I think iam capable to trust myself to be an adult.

Can I? hahaha!

To be morally accountable of my behaviour is so lame sey. Will tell myself to keep going on.

When the time comes surely i will have a jolly good time with my love one.

Good Night and Take Care dear Blog.

o ya i nk mengadu nasib i tot only makel ajer difficult customer.

guess wat

...... are jus the same too.Meniarap darah kt office layan kerena drg.

Ikut kan hati nak hang up phone aje! ARGH!

High stress level Job,ma god. Never tot it cud be dat hard.

2011-05-21T03:40:00.000-07:00

Jaan ure like a bby.

Loving you is all i wanna do.

I never will bewafa. Everything i do is for u.

U got stuck in ma mind n i dont want to free you.

Just days to our 2 years anni. Alhamdulillah. I get emotional with u.

Both good and bad times. Both way u deal with it. I love you jaan. Hope u stay 4eva.

Who says i am Pampered?

Well i never say iam. Its just that i work hard to be one lucky fella.

What u SEE below that must be one bless kid to own such cool gadgets.

I got myself macbook,i was foolish to not protect it. Now it's scratch,ma heart

felt the hurt each time i look at it. haha! Eventho its a struggle i still hv not purchase any

case. Oh damm!

I want to pamper my tired body. For sure everyone deserve this.

Do ur hair,ur nails, body and massage. Cos ure worth it.

You will feel freaking awesome trust me .

Iam waiting for my long waited pay.

N ma freaking lucky straight 3 days off.

Hopefully fri sat sun.

lucky ass. :)

I dont giv a dam wat u tink,tell me im wasting my money.

Everybody splurge their money on something.

I know im not alone,so cut ur crap.

Iam happy i have ma family. Eventho we are busy every minutes. I still Love them.

Those nights talking to ma sister when she get back home,i treasure it.

Those days when mommy used to smile back when i grumble,i cherished it.

Those awkward moment when big bro talks to me,i wont forget it.

Those random times when kuzzins just suprised me,i miss them.

Maysife...missed

Bestfriend are just sister that god forgets to give us.ily wawa.

2011-05-11T10:17:00.000-07:00

2011-04-17T07:31:00.000-07:00

Greeting EARTHLINGS!

(Zah so cute!)

Yup me myself and i finally scape from

the world most horrible politic place ever.

What u tot was a 8 to 3 actually it never happen. Sometimes its more like 12hr job

. When u tot its a 5 days. U go *good wat!* ... nehh... It's six days sometimes.

(me n bff)

I thought it's 800 minus cpf6oo something job salary for the first 3 months. BUT i was wrong. It's for the whole year. Everyday i prayed to god to get out from tis hell. Guess what? I did. A very unexpected way i must say. Even though its totally out of my mind to have done it. I guess there's 'Hikmah' in behind all those mistakes and tragedies plus regrets that i've personally

experience.

(supersweet tmn eat truckloads but super tiny..smell envy rite..i know.haa!)

So i start to brainstorm. Should i go for this 2 government job and be happy that have a job that the salary range is 1400 to 1500. Or should i actually challenge my previous job working days. If i got a chance to work just 5 days. Can i just wish for a four days job? In spite bringing home 600bucks. Give ummi $200 , Bills $200, Transport $100. For whole one week. for one month. Left $100 for me to buy raw stuff to cook for bekal or just makan katluar....fastfood...maklumlah...iam the hantu of all fastfoods. hee!Andimleftwithnothing.Belum masuk duit sakit pening. omg. pathetic.

(muke super sedih kan! haa!)

Why not i challengethesalary range tu.melampau kau...i actually wanted 2k.Muakaka..Alhamdulillah i tot couldnt get it. But i did. Iam totally grateful n i wont askformuch.Iam gona b happy with my job n settle down there. Its 15minawayfrommyhouse.Hubby cruise in that area so many time so me the gundu yg

tk tawu jalan . (seriously if u drop me in orchard i swear i will b sesat!haha) Not a good idea,nono. So jaan when to ring the bell.

In the car we both go *ding dong* so many times. Imitating while laughing.

The conversation goes like.

"nanti awa nampak ni bridge. See! See it? Than ding dong. "

"Nampak tk? Awa nampak ni pandang besar. Tu b

uilding tinggi tekan ding dong"

"Ohh! kay kay! Awa tawu, awa nampak th

at bridge i press. Ding dong n turun"

"alah sekejab jek..senanglah.."

"ingat go work naik bas nie b

alik naik bus nie... Senang"

me in head...ye jangan takut awa gdgur

l go home straight pun

yerlahh...penat lagkpunnn.

Eventho i didnt get 2k :( But i can get it if

i ot on ma off day 2 times.

in one month. i can get wat i wish for.

Tolong Ummi more n still hv money to sav

e.Plus also save duit for study n pelamin. wakakaka. (*eyes big big* "i'm serious OKAY!")

But i wont work all out n risk getting sick in t

he end. I will work n take care of my body.Dear body i promise no more

junk food. I will eat healthy fruits for you. Together We can do it!

Insyaallah i will do my best.For now awa just more than grat

eful.Amiin.Work i loike becouseee i seldom have contact to human world. SO MUKE KALAUMASAI tidakapelahhh. ahahah. Go work take

bus transport go home take bus transport.Macam gi skola gituk..hurrayyy!!! tAK Perlu nk touch up lau muke shiny, tk heran. haa!Cume keje lagik sikit org. Plus i got like my own desk and there's this special feature i especially like. It's like im having my own room. Jadi kalau muke oily or aru finish lunch ke gigi terselit cili or worst eh got eye infection *eeewww* maluu gilerrr i dont even know if i got puss or not. S

cary sey. Work long hours with lens.AC environment sooner or later iam gona get that dreadful infection. PLEASEEE NOOO!

Today otw to work feeling so tired i was shock to see Sophie. Masyaallah. ONE WORD.

GORGEOUS..can say 2? dead gorgeous..can say 3?

drop dead gorgeous. See her face make

me think wen can i have that flawless face. N she loose alot alot of weight. HOW SHE DOES

IT? Eversince i strted this work i have to force myself to eat rice..*i dont like rice* but if i dont later kene visit dengan evil gastric i am gona b so very fat n i am scared. Now gurls are loosing weight like magic n me putting on weight naturall

y. eh i membebel like nenek now! hahahaa! Aish really man in the crowd i think she stands out lah basically no doubt bout that, talking

to her reminded me of ma dear bbydoll wawa. All this mix percentage gurl like niq all. Semoge they all find happiness in their life. lots of love from Farah.Will Never forget any of u.

N yes im turning older soon. N I HAVE THIS URGe

(dear 8 more days to 23 mothsarry,woots. eggcited)

to wear hijab so badly. Insyaallah slowly i will. Pelan i will walk to the path of Allah Swt. I know its not ez and there's lots of responsibilities. I hope i wont b judge. GonnaSave enough money to buy lots of shawl n that's when i will start my journey. I am planning to wear it permanently but slowly like i say. Hopefully no critics will b shove at ma face instead i hope for courage n guidance. Gdbye see u again.

2011-02-25T20:16:00.000-08:00

I love you very much.

2 More days to our monthsary.

And i would like to say that you are the first n the last guy that will ever cross ma mind.

I realized that if i type down what i need to have n must buy. I will buy it

Like for Now..

I own one Macbook

New Hp

at least i got 2 done!

Now for a good camera.

hehehe

If only my salary is 1800 - 2500..i will splurge my money for ma hari raya baju dis year..

( i THINK even without that imaginary pay i will buy. As I am already falling in love with

one..oh no..two jubah...)

I wud love to wear a set of baju raya with my hubby. Plus i want to ma

ke a point to

my dear family let's meet up whenever we have the free time, let's

buy our baju raya same2. Its OKAY IF its not the same color. Just merely the same.

We never wore something that look similar ever in our hari raya celebration.

NEXT...

Must buy a bag that can fit my mac n some books n files.

As I am gona start studying soon. ahhhhh!

So yes i need a bag. I saw one lv bag..

N i so wanna buy it...But nehhh...

I wont do it...its not worth it....Would rather spend that money on my education

and my love ones.

I need to book an appointment to get ma freaking wisdom tooth out. I can't stand it ANYMORE!

Argh mu tummy is making noises. Im gona cook and eat.

Iam sorry my mind is not on the right track i need some food.

"RALIB wake up!!! I want nasi padang PLEASE!!!!!!"

I wish i am sleeping rite now. This is the side effects being a teacher. Even

on Sat i wake up early. Hate this changes. I so want to be an owl back, k lapa. gtg

2010-12-18T19:50:00.000-08:00

I cant wait to have my hands on all the stuff i need(want...mcm phm -_-'....).

It would be extra lovely to snap piccas n record videos on the go..

BUT I CANT!!!

As mY Sony Ericson Phone just wont revive itself...(still paying for it subs every month..haiz)

Do you know how it feels to pay for something every month but ure not using it anymore?

Like paying for a car rent but ure not riding it... wth... (wasted!)

So Life is pretty hectic...No (fugly hectic..)

N now its time to for me to relax for a while n start on ma SPRING CLEANING...

There's no piccas...I feel super lazy to type out...N plus...

(trying so hard to lift a finger to type)

seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

soooooooooo

lllllllllaaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyy

eveeeeeeeeeeeeenn

tooooooooo

liiiiiiiifttttttttttt aaaaaaaaa fingerrrrrrrr

till nex time...

Take care..

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2010-10-02T00:48:00.000-07:00

What I want in my Life... (Stuff)

Register for the Enet banking. So i can purchase stuff online smoothly plus i can book movie tickets on the go! Woo.
Buy a Good Camera!!! DSLR!! (waiting for another raya promotion)
A Lappy So i can watch movie In the car or anywhere.
A good I phone to entertain *me!*...
Bought toner last 5 months...Now literally it can only survive 1 more day!!!
I hv been using silky silk 3.90 press powder for a year now..Shockingly ma face is much more flawless .. Now i will try to buy revlon cp...hee..i deserve itttt!!!

k gtg...

O yes dis 2 weeks...Was the *best* ever....sakit sakit sakit....cinta...

2010-07-25T00:52:00.000-07:00

Sorry For the long Absence Amor,Habibti,Jaan...

I have lots of infinity work to do.

I thank you to ma bff for being a gorgeous angel to me.

Happy Bdae Syg. Ma dear Ive always n will never stop b amazed by ur beauty. U are a always a darling. Ur mom is absolutely beautiful inside out. This August will b our belated kay. As promised...ILY.

Ma dear Jaan is gone to KL for 3 days. The day he left i was sick. Am down with flu fever n cough. Praying he will back by today n i will b healthy on Mon for work.

Nothing ticking except for the clock on the wall..Now i miss the moments when the word boredom never exist. From here well it seems like an eternity..But ure there having fun n i have no clue what going on for the next 2 day. N it's killing me. FIKIRAN SEY!
U think i will go out n njoy this 3 days while ure gone,
Well..u should think twice.

If i have one wish...I will wish 10 more...gaga!

N than wish for all ma love ones to be

happy n always stay close by my side.

Awa tk tawu pe nk bwad..

i Miss....U...

My maysif

Ty for the surprise !! I miss u.

ty Kuzzies for the surprise too.

I swear i have lots n lot of fun.

I Love it when my friend never judge me from my looks or

appearance..What i wear...How natural is makeup how thick it is..

How i colour ma hair. It feel a sense of acceptance when they don't judge u for ur outlook.

Its the best est feeling in the world if ur friend is just like u family. Who never judge u n critic u from ur look n what u wear. Where do u love to go to at nite Singgah selalu or Arab st. Whatever u do is not being track n being kept in their mind

for bad records instead they let u be who u are , where u want to go

what u want to do in life.

cos they know deep down inside u are capable in

taking good care of yourself. U know where to draw the line.

They will be there with u in your journey n stay by ur side.

My family JUST ACCEPT ME FOR WHO IAM.

That's the way it is n i love it.

I have low self-esteem n for them to trust me for whatever

i wana do in ma life. Is somehow or rather givin me ma

confidence. AM very indecisive, trust me.

I just need to not feel afraid of being

judge n critic by others. Jus bcos of what iam wearing or doing.

Just a sense of acceptance give me the world of satisfaction.

I am constantly telling maself jus bcos they think something false or bad About you doesnt mean ure a bitch or anything bad.

I have to be the one reminding myself iam a good gal.

Iam not bad if they say iam. Den...

U dont know me like ma family n friend does.

Once u know n like me u urself will realize that iam not whatever u tink iam on the outside.

I hope that in this young age...I am free from being judge from every single angle i WISH I receive that acceptance.

nO Matter what life goes on eyhh...

2010-05-21T23:48:00.000-07:00

ITS FUNNY HOW I wana save ma money so much n not care bout ma health cos i jus wana see the kids in school..I never should do that again. The first time i took mc..i actually have eye infection n most the most annoying *throat infection* .. For that one month i so wanted to b healthy for one day. I tot i can still force maself n jus got to work in spite of ma horrible flu plus noisy coughing n than just tons of yellow phlegm n iam getting tired of spitting it out all the time. I just cough so much every time i woke up or wen i want to sleep... So after 3 weeks..

It get WORST...I started coughing like hell during school hours ..Still i wanted to go to work...COS MA FAVE BOY LORENZO IS GOING OFF the next day..He is ma bf in skol..He kick,punch,pinch me...I MISS IT EVERYTIME HE MONKEY HUG ME.He will literally throw his body n jump on me ...When he cling on me with that grownup body i felt as tho 3 monkey is hanging on me. I miss it wen he come to me "Miss fawa...u want to come to ma HOuu see..*italian accent*"
I bought him present already..N i wanna pass it the very nex day..
Than on Friday i so wanted to dress up as an army gal so i already have ma hubby army uniform ready with me...So i can prove to ma student Arnav that a gurl in sg still can wear one. haa! iF Arnav were to leave i will b sad too..
After our presentation..the mom came up to me n says...he cant wait to hug u..He kept on asking me (can i hug ma teacher now mummy can i? can i?)
He talks bout u all day...Arnav said "This is ma fave teacher mommy" while smiling n huggin me tightly..I seriously dont know wat to say..I was overwhlem with happiness. Eventho i spend most of ma time towards lorenzo...Iam just glad he knows i never ignore him..His ma fave boy too... *haris dont take it personal*hee ily. So after buying present n planning for the next day to go to work...
That very night i cant stop coughing ma throat is even itchy as hell!!!!! I jus cant talk..I kept on coughing wen ever i tried to talk... That nite was utmost suffering.
N ma guy insist on me taking an MC... n ma mom too...
Darn i wanted to give ma present to lorenzo...but god knows i couldnt take it anymore...The very nex morning i wen to the clinic... The doc said its really bad. U have to take an X TRAY... Lecehh rabak...So i did...While keeping in mind if i had enuff money to pay the the total cost afterward... bukan nk fikirkan bout ma health taw..hee! All in all i was happy i took it... I found out i had lung infection...
Both of ma lungs have infection n there's too much phlegm n if i dont get better in 5 days i must go straight to the hospital.. boify is always rite by ma side eventho he is in camp. Ma vintage hp? to sick to even look at it bat flat all the time. Dear wawa...Iam doing fine now dont worry dear thanks for caring asking how i feel all the time.ily bff.
HMM..My first mc i took.. i had ...Throat infection...
after going to poly mutiple times w/o mc every fri... i dont even feel 1 percent better . After a few week met doc again this time to the clinic n he refer to the hospital...Than i got to noe ma both lung have infections...Ma gawd..Pls pls i must get betta in 5 days...The last thing i ever want to b admitted in the ward ever again. Its have always been due to gastric in the emergency department. I so hate it!!! Moving on i turn down a photo shoot n a makeover... i dont even want it bcos i'm darn sick n plus i dont even hv time for maself.

(he love it wen its natural..i must admit i'm impress,i cant xplain this feeling..its so hard to walk away..to put down the phone n hoping he will call back soon..n feel content wen u giv me ur attention..bby i love u ..)

FOR NOW i JUST feel so happy for ma sis yesterday was her 25th bdae..n i got the chance to be by his side it was worth the wait...than his gone again...Whatever it is in the end somehow i always cant get him out of ma head...Thanks for not letting me feel lonely.I will try to b patient for another year. Its suck..But dats d way it is.
I ate tons of Food at Sakura.
N that's our first time doing it as a family.
I was darn famished. How can i not be? Iam too sick to eat for the past 1 week.
So yea yesterday nite i was too hungry to even care how fat i will be.
Hubby keep pestering me "keje Kunya Aje" -_-... or Keep saying iam fat...
Haa...But the whole crowd said i wasnt.. But i noe iam...

I miss boify
i miss maysif n wawa.. :(

2010-05-02T06:11:00.000-07:00

*GOD I WANT TO DO FACIAL....*

I farah will search the entire sg for cheap black 3 quarter pants*since ma devilish kuzzin never return it back to me* , black or any dark colour long dress, a perfect 3 quarter jacket,black belts,yeaaa! High heels! N lastly manicure n pendicure. WHAT DID I JUST SAY LASTLY? Well shoes,cloth, bags,makeup,pampering ourself is jus us womens.

I know iam no princess. But i wana feel good for maself not for the public.

Whats's So wrong about that.

iAM GONA pamper maself n once i have all the stuff i needed i will make sure i post it here,o yes siti i will make sure ma aunt get ur ac no. K done.

Its the first time iam home on the dot. I can hear the universe cheering now.

I wana sleep thats it. Gdbye.

Who else wana listen to this than ma loyal blog. lol.

i am having fever on n off i hv no voice at all. flu n ma bdy feels like a grandma.never took mc. this is for ct. cos u wanted me to update.eventho i never reply ur msg. ily babe.

I miss maysif. I need 5 months to be really stable. I never get the chance to say how much i hate being in ma current situation. How Come,There's just more work to b given when the next is done. I'm one step faster but ure always slowing me down. It's not a healthy environment for sure.It's no surprise why no teacher stick in that class. From my experience the First one month 2 teacher got in. N one left after 2 week n the next after 3 weeks. One is still in Depression. I tell maself all the time, I gotta stop looking at the time that is ticking on the clock. I got plenty of work n praying for all ma list to finish. Each Tick is a darn race.. It's impossible to finish all alone. Tried so hard to settle down but it's just so cock up.With all this stress i just miss those time iam with ma family boyfie wawa maysif kuzzins n friends. Can i not say ma last goodbye to ma gd colleague. She's indeed literally saving ma ass. Making sure i go home in time. Eventho its not her class she make her way to my class n lend a hand. How can i not praise her? Would u wish to have a friend to help u out jus to make sure ure home bfore nightfall? Every second counts n iam grateful n thank u to u for being nice to me since the first i step in. You have been a great example n trainer to me. Crap i just dont want her to leave. Cos than there will b no one else to rescue me.How can i cope all this alone. haa! I like the way she say... *yes we help her* got too much job lah * she underpaid* hahahaha! Thanks blog ....mengadu nasib kt u memang best. hee!

PS: i love ris

2010-04-27T05:05:00.000-07:00

A beautiful family

alifya n nadeem getting togethter soon!! wee for her reception held in fort canning.

ma dear wawa the flawless n perfect beauty.

I jus love the pic n background,ps thats qaiyum..anyone intrested? lol. inside joke
Happy 11 month deary i wish us all the best n for the trust u have in me will go even deeper.
for ma school.....we must transform that into a walkie talkie. N for ur info soya bean is ma fave drink plus that is exactly ma fave brand soy 4 u.

THats ma lovely colleague..Mere Jaanah. N melza.
Well awa ...w.o makeup n lens..urgh..
Iam too sick n tired to even wear makeup to skol,from the first day of work until now not once i am fully healthy. Look above.Yes that ma plane jane pica n even worst with no contact lens.Where is the awa who turun kedai pun kene pakai bedak?haa! dA malas.. No len.s. as i have throat n eye infection the biji in ma eyes getting bigger n its still there after 1 month..n ma eyes are getting super blurry as time goes by.

2010-03-27T02:23:00.000-07:00

Kalau cinta itu buta...
Siapa yang jadi mangsanya??

Bcos of that one gurl everything changed.
Love n Friendship Is being question n doubt after years of Hardship n laughter being together.
Looks doesn't make u make prettier but with
that heart of urs i think Ure the worst face Ive seen on the planet earth.

If one girl flirt n with others guy ..
U don't have the right to call her a Bitch..
No matter how low that person is...
Please realize that u too praised other guys n wish to b with him...
Even wen u already hav one who is totally madly in love with a girl like u.

How pretty u are if ur heart is not..
Well Basically ure not
If u have the personality ...
But ur Hati Manyak Busuk...
Kau jauh sekali lah cantik di pandangan mata ku...
(no this have nothing to do with ma work place k sayang..)

Ur criticism is a joke,
How right u are than me?
The diff between urs n us...is..
We're just better.

Haiz...The girl who is innocent got caught up in all this is dam stress...
With Bahasa,kalet, attitude face and ur dam pathetic retouching makeup action to
make me feel ouch! Was Stupid... U got the wrong person to make enemies with...
Cos if A girl fight u want... u wont get it...Instead all u see is me being silent n jus bersabar.
Its a pity ma own flesh n blood didn't see any flaws or glitch in u.

Other den dat
I got really hurt by ur words..
Why mention *why* wen i wana meet u..
Not once but more than thrice..
After that u mention whatever wen its done.
U are way too much. Let bygone b bygone.
Ma grudge wont go long..I will still love n treat u n pretend nothing happens.
I dont have to say anything but tru ma sadness or obvious acts it will speak on its own.
Haiz..

Yesterday was a great night of releasing ma stress from works.
Its was a great night i must say.Ma face sucks laaa n i kept dozing...I woke up 5 in the morning n still hang out till 5am in the morn...haa! Thank god ma surrounding understand why. All i know i jus NEED to go out n release stress at work with love one Ma boy.
I miss ma Delhi very much i hope she is doing fine. I received one text from u n i replied but...
idk if u have ,,cos ma hp main gile.. I love u darla.

Preparing for the class art prep or activities,changing diapers,stack up chairs n tables more than 3 time a day since i float diff classes not station in one..
N i experience how to handle autism kids n iam proud to say
I took 3 min to change diaper n change cloth.hee!

Being A MOM is already tired but looking after more than ten its dead tiring..
I promise to maself i will cook good food to ma children so i wont giv the teacher
a hard time in school making sure they finish eating their lunch. Up till now ma long name still confused them. WHATEVER HAPPENS IN school ma love for the kids crave me so very the much to come to school the very next day.

I still have more to learn i pray god that he will help me along the way.
Alhamdulillah i have a gdfriend by ma side all the time.
She guides me in every way. Thanks to a very gd colleagues...I hope she is not leaving anytime soon. Even it means u leaving n i will hv a permanent stay i wont want that i still want u there as u n i still need a friend to talk stories n release stress while working too.

And i also pray to god to that ma love life will do gd until we tie our knot n also after that.
Happy 10 monthsarry Diceyku.

2010-03-13T22:30:00.000-08:00

As i Stare into The mirror making sure i look good.

Ma reflection tell me otherwise.

I know...Being Good Is never enough...

I want myself to be perfect since i was young.
IN EVERY WAY...IF possible...

Still i know myself very well..

I dont wear Skimpy cloth..
To ease mind i deleted my tagged n facebook .
Now the only nights i have is only with u.

I never club .

Never Smoke..Even though i always do inhale in urs..
...n that don't make any differences...
-_-'
Never Drink...
Never have scandals,date,call guys otp,exchange cell number,text and anything related to guys.

Yes one thing u hate the most is me going out at night.
Ma mom trust me very much to know iam smart enough to take care of maself.
Yet with ma freedom...
I only spend ma nights with ma lovely Cousins.

I know am good...But good is never enough...
NO matter how many time i proof to u that i am...

The fact is Am never good enough for you.
Only until we tie the knot..
than ur trust in me will be fully there...I will still do this trial n error in ma life..
So that this love i have will stays on...
The longer we are together...
I feel much more drown in love with u...

There's nights when u hv to book in for ns in the morning at 7am or 10am.
I Thank you for those nights that u took the initiative to meet me.
I Thank you for those times u took me out n treat me just like a princess.
I Thank you for caring to an extend.
U Have shown me what a Guy are capable doing just for the sake of love.
I would like to Say i Appreciate it,i need u without u i cant go anywhere.

They say u dont know what u got until it's all gone..
I will do whatever to make you notice that all i ever did is loving u.
Ure ma BAIYA...haa! Ma bro ma father ma bf.
Insyaallah If we are blessed enuff...
That stage of Ours will Be Shouting...
Legally Married.

Just thinking stuff bout u or us
it cost me
So many sleepless nights...
Why Is this love making me so mess up?
Awa sayang haris gla babi...haa!

I have a good heart n i gave u ...All i want is ur heart too but most importantly ur trust.
WHat a Pity rite?
The most important thing in relationship is trust.
What Am i gona do w/o ur trust in me?
Nonetheless I still do love u very much.

Thus this family I have shall not say much..U noe i loved u dam much too..I love meeting up wth all of u once again. Now i cant anymore stay in either marsiling or bedok house as often. I WILL MISS SITI NURUL FATHIN,NURUL FILZAH,FUAD N AMATI N DAD KASSIM.
i WILL offcially MISS SYED FAIZAL N SYED FARIID N SHARIPAH haa! FAIEZAH PLUS AUNT ROHAYA.
N THIS IS GOING FOR MA DEAREST WAWA. MY ONE N ONLY BESTFRIEND WHOM IS MA EXTENDED FAMILY N FOREVER WILL BE. Thanks for always being an angel ur greatest understading in everything, u have never once made me feel bad about maself never once u made me sad never once u make me cry never put me down n u always said i can do it..u have always been the joy in tears of ma love.
I wish ur love life will b blessed too. Pretty gurls like u will always be admire by many but think wisely k syg. Choose the ONE that satisfy ur long term need not ur short term..hee!! love the quote wawa...Ive made it mine...lol!

I most importantly miss Maysif (im missn also jah n faky ma long lost kambing plus the call centre n others.IDK Wen we are able to meet.Mayb 3 months from now. Mos prolly special occasion i wont b shock if its even the following next year.
O yes surely hv to meet niq b4 june to giv d bag *yipeee!...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YES..........................iT REMINDS ME *Niq haa!*...... THE wHOLE POINT OF THIS ENTRY IS............

IVE GOT MA DREAM JOBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB!
THANK U TO WAWA N ALIFYA SO MUCH.
I WILL WORK EXTRA SUPER DUPER HARD SO THAT MA WORK IS really GOOD.
Dear friend,ex colleagues,family,extended familybff,ex skol mates N Boyfriend PLS DO PRAY THAT I WILL continue working there for the next 6 years of ma life...
And with various competition PLS DO PRAY I WILL GET THE opportunity of a lifetime for a sponsorship IN Diploma.................

semua ikut cakap!!!!!!!!!!!!!

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!AMIIN....aMIIN....aMIIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aS U can see...
Well let the pictures do the talking.....
*tak nak*
hee! I love u very much mere jaan.
Ma hindustan,arab,nepalese,indian n watever campur boy.

AND IAM NO LONGER

WELL...LET THE PICTURE DO THE TALKING.....

AND THIS ONE TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HHAHAAHAHAHAHAH!!!!
Hope u have a great laugh to ma avid readers.sweet.f.bf n bff...

Elissa - Bastanak (English Subtitle)

2010-03-09T09:34:00.001-08:00

I still love her jameela face. N forever i will fall in luv to dis particular song.

2010-02-27T11:29:00.000-08:00

Happy Nine Month To Us.

Meeting eye to eye is the best way ma lover,
by looking away won't solve anything.

If it were ma eyes i will be sad.

Eyes direct ur feelings.

Eyes give u a vision of ur own story.

U put the line n direct it.
You are the director.

If u hate what u see.

You Scrutinize every angle you have seen.

That storyline will be bad.

Cos u want it to be.

A good director listen to his heart n instinct .

Not just rely on what he see n

make a story out of it .

Don't let your eyes fool you,it's god's Gift.

They say a Picture says a thousand words.

This eyes does the same thing.

I hope my director will have a good eyesight.

Out of all the horrible thousand words .

One words is great enough to change the whole

movie to a good one.

This eyes is swollen n red with non stop tears.

Still all i see is You.

If other eyes saw u drank a cup of beer or ink

They might look away n never come back.

If My eyes saw something similar i have doubts of ur Love .

Yet i follow ma instinct as u will change n still Ure the good guy in Ma eyes.

...
You are the greatest gift in ma eyes i hope u realize that i will be there whenever u need me.

...

I'm sincerely sorry.

...

Bottom line is Dont trust what u hear n what u see. Trust the person n listen to your heart,put aside ur hatred and ego.I've learn that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion,not proof to destroy it.Treating someone differently jus bcos of wat u see might just add more tears of sadness than joy. Seeing,assuming and accusing is never good. Talk,listen and comprehend that's the best.

2010-02-23T23:04:00.000-08:00

No no no...not updating buy jus telling ma syg how i love airbrush n black gel eyeliner.

Why airbrush?Advantages is alot. But one disadvantages....To clean it, is not an ez job there's alot of part to sanitize...

Here's the advantage.

1.I don't have to a number of brushes to a complete a look.

2.Traditonal method of wearing a makeup u have to touch ur face.

3.Its the most sanitary way as it does not touch ur skin at all.

4. Again if ure using the brush the bristle tocuhes ur skin therefore the bristle are prone to bacterial build up.

5. U only have to use 2 small drop of foundation to cover ur whole face.

Ahhhh!! Cool aint it...Basically i found one cost 25 bucks.

N i am crazy bout this indian bangle!!!! I love to wear it so much. Basically i will use more than 5. The more the merrier. haha!!

k done!!

Oh ya i cook lemon rice n fish head curry...K FINE I didnt have the guts to put the head in.So its jus the body part which is ikan talapia i tink from indon hahah!Cant wait to have ma syg to eat it tonight....*boo hoo the smell of curry still stays*

2010-02-02T01:53:00.000-08:00

Why mus life always B stuck by what do people think n wana say.Listen here ! NOT ALL INDIAN are Kaki Pukul n kaki minum.I hate how u jus discriminates the indians so much.

I ve spend ma time with grownz N non of them is half of wat u said it is.

MA BFF IS THE SWEETEST INDIAN! in fact an angel !!

Excuse me Just remember all race have dis such acts too.

All guys have their disadvantages,not all are perfect.

NO matter how bad iT iS , U

HAVE TO b PATIENT!

Mark ma words! The night that i will save my money for my *henna nite*

will b full of fun people that dont judge one jus by race!

N BOLLYWOOD N ARAB SONG WILL B BLAST FROM THE SPEAKERS.

BHANGRA N BELLY DANCE IS MORE THAN WELCOME.

i WILL dance to ma heart content!!!Not caring what u all wana said .

For now it sux n hurts ma feeling so much.

N also i reckon MOst of the percentage will b indian than arab.

So u beta GET READY TO SEE ur first Arab clan Break the rule of marrying to one.

Instead of scrutinizing why dont u pray the best for me. After all, that what family do for one another.U want me to get to an arab which claims to b rich but will i b happy with him>?

Matchmaking huh? Hell no!

I thank god that i knew ma guy good n bad side N Go together we change for good together.

Than knowing nothing bout him in the initial n suffer at the end.

For now I will have to keep on the low just bcos i dont want receive vulgarities on the phone from u n hurt me much further.

What is more annoying is U DONT CARE bout me for the rest of

ma living years. Why now? Argh!

Ma henna nite that i save will b full of laughter.

Insyaallah.

I will make that happen.

Dear relatives n friends Note this ok!

Ily ummi u have teach us more than money cant buy. Ily.

2010-01-17T22:37:00.000-08:00

The types of Decision making that Humans have to go Through their daily life may took a huge toll on them but most of the time its makes a diff. N Bfore makin one u often asked for opinions n doubting each options to find better alternatives. Ur loved ones are your support system which automatically u turn to first in search of an answer. Its written all over ur face a problem solver is all u need. I'm uncertain of the choice i have to make. The fact is i fear how it will effect ma life in a long run.Alhamdulillah I have Wawa In ma life who never fails to understand me. Habibi too. This morning ma mom woke me up.She was so eager to tell me till she pull away d pillow on ma face. Once again *baba -s* persist on matchmaking having us getting married with a well arab guy. Its still hard getting up n processing the detail ma mom is trying to get into ma brain. She have so much to say but all in all i get the idea already, an arab living in Sydney wants to minang me . N than my sis too.My dear mom u should have known me better. I said nope, not interested.Of course i went back to lalaland n slept with ma severely aching body due to family edition amazing race which i really have fun. Now that's one decision i will never regret dun worry habibi.Later on after i woke up i still have an avalanche of diff choices to consider.What i wanna b? Where to Work? ....At times i jus go with the flow. Just gota keep pushing maself .Time past me by w/o me realizing. For sure i will find peace laying so nice where i wana be, no stress. Now am gona work no where glamorous first. Just another random place where i feel happy seeing kids running around. Playing with toys n i dont hv to care bout how i look rite cos kids dont mind. Not all!! Budak zaman sekarang dah lain...TRUST ME!!!haa! Still 19 N wondering n confuse how will i live ma life the next 20 years. I will b darn bz for this 3 month. After that will b meeting up with loveliest ezly. Sorry guys...lately ive been hard to reach *Not surprising* Facebook i will b there... Ily.

Oh yeaaa! I will b both saving n planning for Meetup in this 3 month too.
Family gathering is a must after countless times i spent with loveliest grownz i neva stop
wishing ma family will hv the same fun, awa will b organizing family gathering!!
Can't wait!!

2010-01-12T13:19:00.000-08:00

My free speech..Cos u Abuse urs...

Why bring me down wen ma face cant b loyal to one race?

Whats wrong with potraying diff cultures wen u hv the features?

HERE WE ARE,CIRCLE NEVER END.

I dont think am ugly, but am nothing close to beautiful.

Why aggravate the matter and let one who merely own a face

suffer the agony. How long ago did u have sympathy?

I regard myslef as ur allergic reaction. An unsual sensitiveness

of the body which couse certain people to be affected

in a bad way by something HARMLESS .

I pray ur ailments goes away and nothing bout me is alluring to you.

Cease the acts amassing one's flaws.

Analyse yours n amplify it for ur

greater understandings.

Reality will hit you hard jus like an anchor

fall onto ur ego.

I wont heave that heavy anchor till u stop giving me mean comment.

fs? tagged? fb ? email ? I tried ma best not to heed ur harassment.

Its hard to deal but i get the hang of it. A friend u tried to b in the beginning.

Just a glib u turn out to b in the middle.

This Bravado of yours wont go far i asure you.

Ure brazen young women will bray for attention while breach of the peace.

Yet harmless soul will never b movve by an inch or even a glance to ur cheaply Acts.

Deal with ur sickness dont make me ur side effects.

Life goes on

only wen u get the sense of direction in living ur life.

I have a reason in living i wont b gloomy cos i have ma loved ones bside me.

do anything u want to ur heart content.

Anyways I forgived you.

(Copy from fs)

Come On u look arab the nex day u look pakistan,stop looking so ugly.

I am not ur hater but i just need to let it out.

Your face its jus changing constantly.

Surgery huh? Come on! Its obvious enuff.

So stop posting pictures with or no powder.To proof anything.

So long..O yea Keep ur Hands of that Metal sharps stuff.

Ur Loyal face watcher.

I cant even go for facial how else surgery? Stupid.

Face changes when humans grew up, when will you?

Thanks.. U have made me even more stronger.

PS :Iam so Over you.

2010-01-03T01:10:00.000-08:00

Someone Told me pain is a game everyone got to play. N u got a price to pay to hv one gd time. So i did ma overtime but when the game will b over. When is it ma turn? I ve done a great deal of good karma. I kept doing ma own thing dat bring good to others. Above all i still live this life that i get jus enuff love from ma family.

I did ma very best, this is all apart of life.

Ever feel like u are like a shoe but w/o the shoe string. ure the shoe trying to walk ridiculously while someone u care about watching you n jus lay there do nothing making you feel no betta.

Have you ever felt this feeling that U jus wana rewind back time. Have u done the most disastrous choice In ur Life,U noe u gotta reverse it.That could effect ur family ties badly. The only people that u have in this world.U kept saying to urself *WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING?*

The worst part is U know wat will happen at the end if u choose to decide dat option. U realized the very first sec u wanted to opt that option the ending will b such a f.horrible DISASTER. N u tink u got wat it take to jus go with the flow jus for the sake to make ur love one felt good even a lil weeny one. U totally obey n followed each n everything that will make ur love one elated. Even when its magnificently ridiculous and sometimes it make u wana cry.

But u noe u jus have to do it. To make ur love one feel happy. It doesnt matter wat will happen cos u are trying to make everything right n sweet jus for the both of u in that particular situation EVEN if u noe the outcome.The only thing on ur mind, u dont ask for much. U needed a friend a listener. A person to laugh with that night n till the end of time. Why do goodgurls always get the strict husband?Ever said this?**Where is the moment wen i need u the most.** N that someone blame it on blues ??Even after countless times of foolish sacrifices i still go clueless. Where exactly is This Love quality? Ignorance is bliss..But its getting old. Ever said u took the fast highway lane n endedwith dirt all over u now. Crossed ur limits faking smile while crying,acting nothing is wrong,feeling numb,saving someting that u wana hold on foreva n its so weird that SORRY always kept on repeating u kept on accepting. Its worst when the other party jus act as tho nothing happen.Every night the same old routine, tossing n turning trying so hard to sleep with a broken heart n if u achieved. The very first noise that disturbs ur deep sleep just instantly make u dont wana fall back again to slumber. Its more maddening if ure an insomnia.

U noe how i feel not typing out anything dat bug me out of ma head. Ma brain is totally going suicidal keeping everything in ma head it's deleterious. NOTE THIS ma darl mut said its harmful to keep negative tots in ur head for too long. I MISS MAYSIF! tra la la la.. heck i miss ma kuzzin n i want wawa! I want to love ma freaking life again which was bored previously but now its jus cought in a bad romance which i still looking forward hoping everything will change very soon.All good things takes time right?Here is the story that kept rewinding like a broken record in ma freaking body systems. I should direct a movie i have too many parts.

I present U Ms Sarah.A girl who is lost deeply eons ago n wanting to spread n fly her wings. Sadly its so hard cos a disgusting dumbass from her history is sitting on her motionless.

She's a troubled girl since young but she kept striving not to b one ,she hated the fact she was a splitting image of her father. The man who Sarah will hate n for eternity despise along with his snake blood line. His hot n cold even more hotter or should i say his strong hands turns into a hammer, when his drunk. Stupid question doubting mom flirting with other guys while she is earning a living for her kids. She never have time for her family n friends n she have no choice as her husband dislike his wife to go out and have some peace. A simple trip to the outside world to buy daily necessities is considered *merayap* or a reason to creep out of the house to him. Her cloth is angelic enuff but to him its not.

Thats's not all talking to friends on the phone even after finishing her chores as a wife n a mom was strongly disagree not verbally but through his cold body language. Still she obeyed like a slave even when she have done nothing wrong.Bills were overdue till there was no electricity in the house,candle was used at night to complete homework.Food were simple. Friedrice,Sadin can,rice mixed with black sauce n margarine for as long as they can remember.It took so long for her to accept the fact the kind of father she grew up with never go. Sarah only knew a father who raise voice for money,drunk,abuse,do drug,sell drug in the comfort of the master bedroom where she can simply dine in while he was high,lazing around with useless friends in the coffeshop, job hopping,gamble,get into fights and lots more.

Yes his a guy but what right does he have to hurt someone feeling.Both gender have feelings!Why does being a guy should b a reason for him to do anything he wants without feeling guilty???

She rather stay awake every night from falling asleep unless her mom came home from work n start to keep patting sarah's butt until she fall asleep.Let me tell u until now Sarah needs a pillow at her but at all times due to bedtimes habit.

Her growing up years was a nightmare the worst roller coaster ride ever. Years she spend wondering how can her mom absorb all the blaming,harsh words that put down her moral to the core of the earth, treatments seems slavery she neva deserve,not even a a lil appreciation neither a speck of respect inspite she kept silent for more than 19 years enduring the pain with great deal of patience.Only to her bestfriend sarah's mom let out her feelings n sometimes she jus cried all along. The greatness of having a listener, helps alot to make one feel better.After one child to another child,sorry with wailing n promise to change kept repeating but neva happen.Someone like this always have a second house, the prison.The memory wont leave, Its so often until she can still vividly remember the police had to cuff her father countless times. Sarah NEVER see her mom complaining or whatever.She was too good. Her useless husband step all over her as she kept her silent.Sarah's mom can get way better guys infact in her younger days she was the talk of the town numerous guy already ask her in hand for marriage.

Mom was never the type,she prefer to stay home n shy away from people. She was too naive i should say. How naive? To obey all his instructions let him just go anywhere despite the hurt she kept to herself realizing he never tell her where were his destinations to.Do whatever he wants as his please n even wen one day she found a small packet of white powder that she kinda knew is a drug but never wana start an argument that wud turn him into an ugly beast she pass back that item to him. Every little thing that is nothing can turn into a reason to stupidly fight.
If only matchmaking never exist her life wont b as suffering. Sarah's mom knew the point of her living was for the children.

Sarah's teenage years was so full of influences n everything bad is listed above was reintroduce to her by kids who thinks its cool to have tattoos n kept changing sex partners. She tagged along but never she have the desire being spoil. She could hv done it a very long time not bcos of her friend or stress and simply blaming it at her father but wats the use to follow her friend wen Sarah's mind hates to b one so disgustedly sick like her father. She can feel it everyday rushing through her head not to do the same mistake.Sarah tot her life is over wen all this fall upon her at once. After a long wait....fireworks starts to explode in her mind bcos the word divorce was heard. No words could describe how content sarah was. That elated moment indeed landed her into a tight slap.When stupidly father asked"Sarah do u like me n ur mom getting divorce?"... a kid who is as honest as an angel wud speak the truth dats how the trashing started.

The divorce actually gave the father a new job to hop * bar hopping* . He even dare to call n ask for mom otp n the background noise screams out *CLUBBBBBING!!!* When u think that the worst part...Girls were laughing n even flirting with him. Oh n u tink that's when sarah's mom starts to yell. *tet!!!!!!!!!!!*WRONG guess. Its an outrage!! Not even a lil revenge her mom kept in her heart. UNlike the husband who never quit to b a looser.Her mom unbelievable strong Patience eventually pass down to Sarah.

Sarah amazingly have wonderful bff,friends,workmates n loving cousins who always bring her out. They are all she loved n have but is still rejecting n ignoring tons of good guys who will truly make her happy. Sarah just pray she never have to go tru the hell her mom have to suffer....

Honestly im dry out of idea to continue the story... shit....

Haiz can sarah's mom live with a guy that mental? Married couples arent suppose to b like that. I mean HELL! what if THEY COUPLE ARE NOT EVEN MARRIED? man am confuse.Why must she stick to a guy who doesn't give her free space, who does he think he is? The Devil father n husband from hell?He treats his loyal wife like a slave, he step all over n can get anything he wants. SHES'S spoiling him from the start of the relationship knowing she so well she can get better guys,who are extremely good to the extend they never date or even have a gf before. He doesnt deserve her faithfulness n loyalties.Why would she stick to one n giv herself to sumone who treats her like shit. N why for that bastard she is willing to cut all ties with her closed one. omg...She never stop giving him more n more time to change. haizzzz... am done.

shit....
atleast the stupid dumbass can atleast act like he cares.

2009-12-24T00:05:00.000-08:00

"Who doesnt long for someone to hold,who knows how to love u without being told.Somebody tell me why i'm on my own? If there's a soulmate for everyone."

I miss MA Rebonded Fringe...

Clipping on ma Extensions....

I Miss dressing up.

Having 8hrs of catching up otp.

I miss Loving n seeing people.

I miss Laughing n Making lame jokes..

Watching wawa touching up her makeup..

N den get cought seeing her doin it...

I miss All those people Whom I have long wana meet.

I miss puttin

on thick eyeliner.

What i seriously need is now

Facial

Shed A Couple of Kg n

Work it to achieve curvier waist.

Let ma Hair Be Curly.

Rebond Fringe.

All this in This 2 Month Of Saving up..

N Hola! ma New Journey (career)

Flying...

This Is not wat i intend to Post...

Will Re-do wen i have the time...

...May U all have A wonderful Day..

Take Care Gorgeous n Handsome
Man N Womens.

"Live ur Life with ur arms wide open,today is where your book begin,the rest is still unwritten."

2009-12-21T02:05:00.000-08:00

ItsPicture from weeks ago.
N yes ...iamuploading the picca...that only mean iam back home sweet home.

But i definitely miss this gurl rite here n the others sweetlove.

Ct likey licky me.

Well people enjoy the piccas here...But the Story that i will convey today

Aint bout any other than the series of ma unfortunate events that happen yesterday night.

On the Sunday...It was the most perfect nite..As me n zah n aunt

went to the IKEA. Have fun ate to 2 hotdog..(diet kepla otak awa)

ThAN wait for Habibi to send his dad back Home.

An awesome night indeed, i will definitely never wanna miss.

To see him is really nice,cos his absence is really drying me out.

We head to esso n *top up* the oil.. Its still excites me to see how he does it. haa!

Darling got 4o bucks from father. So he borong kt the store n bought our all time fave

Choc chip..chips more...Plus

tin of tuna n a loaf of bread..

("haris beli yang makal punyer taw jadi awa makan healthy")

haha!

Plus one can of soya bean n also an apple drink..

I was shock there were 3 mentos in the plastic...

He purposely standby that to refrain from having bad breath due to the tuna..

But why until 3?

Our mouth wont stink that bad.(Promotion!).haa!

*see me advertice chew gum* hee

After a scrumptious night .

We got to head home as mr ns Have to wake up in d wee morning..

Yes of cos i was pouting but in the end...I cant ikut kn perasaan.haha!

So i have to take more stuff than usual....

We took the lift n bid boodbye. The hardest n saddest part.

N than d usual peek a boo... haa! (u noe i noe)

N i lock ma housedoorr..than went straight to ma room..

I was so distracted by the New cloth ma sis got...
n i tried it on..n kept looking at the mirror..

UNTILLL I REALIZE SOMETING WAS utterly WRONG...

I LEFT ME HP IN THE CARRRR!!

i WAS frustrared n furious at maself!!! HOW CAN I B THAT CARELESS!!

I usually left simple small stuff...Like earing..compact powder..ma key...

BUT NEVER MA HP///i cant contact him as his pp is low...

No way of communication at all!I was so afraid! I was scared out of ma wits...If his parent were to find ma hp.

I start to freak out! I already have pictures in ma mind..

HIs parent would shake their head in dissapointment

knowing him meeting me at nite.

OR WORST///the msg content..!!!

I MISS U i LOVE YOU...*NK HUG*

Confirm such a turndown to their eyes. (o yea this is ma aunt)

There was a tons of thing running in ma mind!

N I CANT STOP tinkin if the parent already have hatred towards me..

n wats worst if i cant meet him again. (ma little sibling)

Instantly i woke ma sis up n told her wat happen..

(double touble)

She persuade me to take the first train!

N she exclaim if u can stop it from happening

why dont u!

I might get him into trouble n maself into deep shit hole.

Than i quickly change ma attire. Since he is really strict on ma dress code.
I know he would prefer me so much wearing a t shirt n jeans.

So yea i did, to make him feel gd.

I do feel n look horrible but yea watever.

I took the first train n rush ma way tru.Wen i reach... i find the rite spot so i can see him opening the door. The house was still dark, N i noe i was early as i remember him meeting me at 6.40

the the other time

as his ridin the motor.So yea i waited n waited till i saw sumting bright!! i tilted ma head...N IWAS HAPPY cos finally sumone switch the lightsss on!

N i waited patiently...from 6.15....wen it still dark...

until 7.15 wen it already bright n finally i see the door opening.I was so glad..So i hurriedly wen to his block..

I was planing to hide at one corner n *BOO!*

bUT MA FEELINGs TELL ME to jus sit n wait for him.

But intead of him, his brother came out...*come to think of it,lucky me didnt do the boo thingy i will embarass maself to the extend.*

But his brother was SHOCK.

hE WAS LIKE *eh!*

haa!

I asked him haris dah siap untuk Ns..N sekali...ma heart crushes into pieces..

*dier dah daripade tadi pegi*

So i said owh sebab awa nyer hp tertinggal kt dlm kerete..

SO he was on his way up until he ask me.

Tau maner haris park kerete?

**tak tau**

Neither do i want his bro to b late.. So i said its ok...

I kinda mumble to him n talk lots of stuff..Seriously.. i guess i was going mad being alone waiting for him..N no friend to talk to..I kinda say awa ingatkn tu haris cos dari camera mcm haris..or like awa ingatkn dier nyer kawan antar..tkpelah...i dont know wat i was talking in the wee morning,,,but yea,,I was sad..He bro reassure again with his mom if love have gone out.

But yea he did. Bro tell me to jage baik baik n alik umah dulu. So i take out a penny n call mom n inform her iam taking the 22 bus n heading home..

I regretred taking the bus...i WAS shivering the whole trip.It was literally snowy cold.

I reach home...N I wish n pray that miracle happen. Jus wen i head to the toilet the house telephone rang...

but it stop...

than it rang again....

IT WAS MA BBYBOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dam i feel like crying... kept ma cool...

He said that the hp he already kept it.

N the bro told him..*i tink via msg*

I SAID sedap HATI AWA DENGAR....

TO NOE that the hp i already safe in

his hand in the room.

den i reassure with him wat time he will b online..

Since his taking the bus i will b meeting him on msn

at 7..but now its already 8..

I cant stop worryng bout him.

n wen i open ma msn tis is wat i get...

Morn syg

Aru tersedar

Forget to tell u ur hp lupe nk amik

nw with me..

ni nk siap2 gi keje

Dont worry i keep ur hp with me..like i keep u till now..

I love u so much farah

ape2 msg hp ris ok

need to go to work

Meet u at msn arrd 7 today

ris naik bas

nari no bike

haa!

(if only ma mom wont shout at me opening the msn wee morning ...i would have already hv ma sweetdreams)

2009-12-16T14:47:00.000-08:00

*ma busuk face..n i pout most of ma pic cos hari tu jatuh mcm nangka busuk*

SEEE....mA HAIR is curlyyy Back...haizz..

The girls who were as close as sister got lost in time. Their nick names are Zah,Awa and Yana.
Sadly Naim,Fariid,Adneed,Faizal aint there to complete our long lost ties. Great deal of pictures were taken. Time was just flying away. Tho in each of every one of their Great Minds lies 3 words. Boy. Or should i put in this way. Boy Boy boy... Ohboy.. WeLL In Times To come we all Realize we gurls Are Destined to Meet One dAY or another. Like how awa suprisingly las min bumb into Ct n also Syahirah. Picccas will b updated. *I know* BUT not in 3 days time... As i dont make it home sweet home. I sleepover aunt place yet again. Still i adore staying over aunt place as i cant seem to not get ma ass off any of ma kuzzins place. Bsides Marsiling...hee! I love ma lil sibling. Oh yea..Later at nite Sumone was piss at me..But we got tru yet again...I admit i got carried away by not looking at the time or not updating u. Everyone pp was low, both hp dead.I am sorry.Met for A while tho...But he gotta head home early... Ns mAHHH...hE DRove off... (Kiter tk boleh ikut kn perasaan) chey abg berg bual.

So i Head home...wash face with zah..sweep floor...sleep...i Twist n turn... Till 4 hours laterr..
I open the laptop n hear some song. I idle sor a very long time...till ma heart ask me to come online..N there he was...Online too... He didnt sleep all nite...Aiya....Mr Sweet guy ask...wANT TO MEET? oF COS lah.. So me n busuk face below go down...N in a matter of time. iTS RAINING cats n dog. I wonder ...(why didnt it rain on sat n fri? iT Could b more welcoming..)As love was having the dilemma to either take the bus or motor?i was worried it wud b dangerous.
N long story short..i asked him to A.w.O.L ...HAHA! i wasnt serious..jus wishful tots. It was already 6.30... so he decided to take the bus.
Remember zah u told me that u Stumble n fall infront of ur guy...Than i laugh....AWA KENE BALIK...I hurriedly took love bagpack n went towards the slippery floor... *leg wobble* n *drop*
haa! he went back said sorry pick me up n i was smiling tinking of zah ! lol...while walking fast i said this is memorable. haa!

Back home with ma hair drenched while sniffing sumting bad. It was meow2 poo n urine...wash it away n realize ma leg was in pain...ALL In All IT WAS A Great nite to remember. BITTER SWEET MEMORIES I MUST SAY.

Wassalam!
luv bby awadicey to death.

*smack tight ass*

Reassurance timing 8pm..I can't Wait...Being far jus Sux!

2009-12-13T00:55:00.000-08:00

Hey World, Awa here..
I hv been spending ma time wisely tis One week. I realized this opportunity wont come twice.
No dissapointing moments,no promise being broken,accuses,never ending waiting for a time to meetup cos ure clueless if it will truly happen as it's saddenning n frustrating to get ur hopes hign n sumting jus neva happen the way u plan it to b.U feel me?
Love got 1 week mc,So meet him wenever there's a chance. The cycle of waiting every weekend
jus to meet up is already heartache. Why NS?why why why..
I tried to put aside ma dislikes n insecurity n jus go with the flow. I just hate how ugly i look with the sun shining brightly at me.*step vampire pulakk..hee!* I Have numerous friends n kuzzins that prefers to go out at 5 pm or later as it will b dark soon. Yes iam a puteri lilin, i hate wen its bright outside. Sumpah demi Allah i have freakin great people surrounding me. Every night i hv darlings textin me asking for simple hangout. Cos they Know how much iam in love with the moon. Bside dat i feel so content n comfartable wen the sky is dark n how the whole aura feel so at home n as d cold wind just blush ur face so gently.Dont underestimate how glad i will feel to b out at nite. Yes i go out at night frequently but i noe ive done nothing wrong,i grown tired hearing people said its bad,but the fact is till now i still didnt step in to any club neither do i sit n get drunk drinking. In other eyes theres noting wrong drinking n smoking while having fun.I wont mind at all.It's jus dat i ve seen the worst n iam afraid history repeat itself.We all have our own sets of limits n mind.Mine is i will never drink nor smoke in ma life. I need to call ma bff to tell her ma hp line hv been terminated n even ma bf hv no idea. But the housephone bat is so low. pfft!This few nights hv been amazing, tho lots hv happen i tink today morn was most memorable. As i strip down naked *as in ma face*!! *(of cos got oxy) n wore a jubah dat he quotes *mcm kain buruk* *pantat! true tho as the long sleeve was rip off violently. hee! N i called him bfore meeting him .."Are u ready?" He laugh n said "Just come" I sat nex to him n i asked "So how? Can u wake up to this face every morning?With this oxy on ma face?" N he said"yes" n he reassure me by texting saying *btw sumpah demiallah u look better ....* I swear he make me feel gd bout maself,of cos there r times the word *mok* is mention i jus said iam sory i got but n boobs. Den i sulk. hee! We fought like hell but tru thick n thin i guess once i knew a guy i will stuck to one 4eva. 6 years in malife no such thing me talking to guys otp,meetup,intrested in guys, jus chats on the msn. N that's it. Ma brain is set to talk,meet,love one guy. Ma aunt bdae is 2morrow so love send aunt to airport as an early present. Lol. Me n lil sis plan to treat aunt like a princess n cook a morning breakfast. Wonderfully she's not working on her bdae. Hopefully ma beloved kuzz eddy n fiz will b here to celebrate.
Everyone is out now, now i feel as tho iam in ma own house,the silence n boredom.I just hate it so much. The smart cat wil only sleep on a bed dat is laready being nicely made n i miss playing catching wif meow2, i hv to do chores now. I wana mop today! Byeeee!
PS: I wont b updating as often now. Sorry.
Tc!Wassalam!

Jason Mraz Im Yours Ukulele Cover ft. Uke3453 WITH LYRICS

2009-12-10T13:10:00.001-08:00

All i Have to say is thanks to ct for this Hilariously awesome video.N i found the one with lyric,suprisingly ma name came out! Awa!! haa!!I feel like digging his nostril for him,its so obvious that his nose irritates him dat much. haha!
I miss ma Bf, Bff , Fs , Kz... haiz...

Guys GO pancing, Awa Super Bored...
Today went out with Love, Basically
to reservice the car.
N took the bus home.Got maself lotion
N also we ate Mutton while bontot
order nasi goreng mama. The food
Colour amazingly make hun lips
from black(kay..tu Melebih) dark *colour*
to orangy red. haha! Pay a visit to the elders.
N it went on..from beautiful mother to sister to lil bro
than met gorgeous aunty at d void deck a lil chit chat
n finally the berg father. haa! Bought Lil kuzzy Burger
n *kopok*...N head home...
Sadly No pica...
From there it can speak thousands of words..
Knowin the fact i will snap mutiple pics...
I will end up making a novel..

O yes let me share 2 thing,that there's still time for me to pursue ma career to fly with bff till nex year.N also ma face is always changing,it does scares me sumtime.The other day i look eurasion,than the next day sumone asked me if i were a pakistan,its not suprising if i sumtime look like an indian too. Comment it to other arab i guess it's unpleasant to one ears. But i dont bother,having different faces is better than to hv no face at all!! haha!!
People keep saying ma face hv diff races all the time,so its true ma eyes aint playing a trick on me. My little Kuzzin Jus woke up!!!!!!!!! N imagine this while walking towards me fariid farted!!

haa!Iam so tired from jus now but its so hard to doze off,since luv wants me to sleep *early* i shall not dissapoint darla.Loving ma bff/f to death!

2009-12-09T08:45:00.000-08:00

Don't Mind Plain Jane Face.

Guys N Girls i Will revive BacK, My Original Blog that is private Soon

....er or later.... * haa!*From then on i will put ur links n it will b for all to Read.

But What iam certainly gila babi sure of, for Now iam Gonaa Use this Link For quite

a super duper Long time... The VERY LAST time i post ma recent picca was...

Centuries Ago...

Siti N Friends kept on saying..

"Awa dah lame aku tk nampak kau,mcm manerlah muka kau sekarang?"

Since U all Nk sangat, Its ur lucky Day...

Since i change ma cloth as i need to settle sumting downstairs

N...i SNAP piccas

from ma aunt's camera.

I love ma Bf + f = Bff.. Hehe! I love ma Kuzzins n also I miss them Badly,

Some say Love i say Fate...

Other than dat watever is being said

Is jus super random..

2009-11-05T01:49:00.000-08:00

In this utmost Shortcoming Freaking Years Of My LIFE. I Nurfarah Deena Still undergo The Same cycle of Life. Unwelcome Disappointing moments never fail To sway in ma* hyperbole* pathetic yet blessed Life i Must say.

Schooling in the Morning till Evening .
Work And end till Wee Morning.

N the same cycle goes on n on.

Tho u might have a break..By quiting Your Job...Or Obviously Medical Leave n Off..

Sound Super Familiar To u! Yeahhh No hINT OF suPrise For me....

Its Singapore AfterAll...I noe am not the Oni Kid...*iam still young at heart*

So Now I wAnnA Restart Ma FreakIn Life..

After All the numerous differents Fields i hv been working n Learning .

hmm..Been Doin Some research lately...

*drum Rolls*

What's the Best Airline To work For...

Here Goes...
In the UK BA has to be the best in terms of salary, the union is very strong there. You get plenty of rest, good travel concessions..however because it is a huge airlines, it can be a unpersonnal. As they say, At BA , staff have a number, computers have a name. You will just be a number and will rarely work with the same people which is not always a bad thing though. Virgin has great destinatiuons but they work REALLY hard and money is appaling. If you don't fit into the @barbie doll@ category you might find it a bit hard, not to get the job but to actually get on well with your wannabe top model colleagues.

BMI has to be the worst. Staff usually stay one year and piss off to another airline. Still better money than Virgin but you work REALLY hard, doing yp tp 24 flights a week.

Emirates, gluf air are gret airlines but they have an age limit and you need to be based in the middle east whch is fun at the begiining but can be VERY lonely.

Being a former steward, i need to warn you the job is NOT glamorous at all. You may love it but think hard about leaving what you are doing now.

(BA IS BRITISH AIRWAYS)

iVE work in sats Lounge 1st n 2nd class.....N its true BA own beautiful faces. (awa research) haa!

Another respected Comments.

Air Canada offer a good salary and conditions, as do BA. Emirates offer a good package and Dubai isn't a bad place to be based. Qantas have a good reputaion as well.

Heck of a job, your body clock gets all messed up, you have to deal with idiots on a daily basis (which is why I'm always polite to the attendants to hopefully make their job easier) and it must be hard work, with the added danger of crashing into things.

Now Tell me... British Airways? Singapore Airlines? Qatar? Emirates?
or Go Budget AirLines?

JetstAR?

Will Make another research on that. As for now...i hv to go.Tc darla!

good luck!!

2009-08-22T02:12:00.000-07:00

Ma Gawd remember all those piccas we took!THE vintage hot red mercedez in our skol!n Wen we were in Ikea! Than all the way we took piccas till we reach Queenstown mall! OMG I REMEMBER... i hv already copy it so i delete all of the piccas in ma dgicam! guess wat! I wanted to paste it in ma new folder n JENG JENG JENG...it didnt work.SORRY ! OMG i love al those pica especially the one we sat on the floor while waiting for yani to collect his dog tag n remember the sexy pica i took with ma hotdog at ikea! haha! OMG! N remember iman's piccas! N ALSO TIS ONE PIC I TOOK TO SHOW MA DARLA I WAS GOING WITH MA PLANE JANE FACE!OMG! sORRYY! ok i shall replace all those PICCAS with ma 3 NIGHTS OF GHOST OUTING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHICH IS WAY BETTA RITEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OK HERE GOES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! errr.....I DONT KNOW WHATS HAPPENNNING WITH THE BLOGGER! I CANT UPLOAD PICCAS!

2009-07-29T05:00:00.000-07:00

This is wat u call *candid*

Introducig our ladies. Priya n Yunita. Would like to say thanks to yunita for the piccas.
:)

Murthada(Trying to wat? haa!)

I think I slap Iman...Thus iman face turn out dat way...

Yani...pftt..We were suppose Stare at each other...!! Darn ma face like tut!!

WAIT !TELL ME HOW MANY HANDS DOES IMAN HAVE?

scary...

Part 1..

Part 2

Part 3

(they camwhored first...should hv knwn betta that their

loveliest love taking pics..than later they tell us to come over)

siti n bapak nyer same pose!

Come on murthada ...stop stealing people's pose..hahaha!

Peace!

K POSE SEMUA MESTI NAMPAK GIGI OK....
i am loving all this pictures...Showing their teeth was obviously a success!

K WAIT..YANI TRYING TO EAT IMAN UP??or wat??

Can u tell me if this is fake laugh or genuine>?

Cant figure it out rite? Well ....

Idk...Iman looks genuinely happpyy! hah! belo!

K first n foremost let me point out ma arms look thinner here..wakaka!

1) iman n murthada hv the same pose...

2)Siti syg ,Pose tunjuk gig dah lama habis..haha!

Siti way cuter than us..pfft!

Finale!!

Than the teacher came n shoo-ed us out of the canteen..To noisy? Escaping from class?The truth is...we al jus need a breakkkkkkkkk!

muacks!

2009-07-24T09:27:00.000-07:00

Anker point? haa! In queenstown.(i knew that ...ok?...pfft)
happy family.
OH OH ...SITI IS SO DARINGG...until utt darl slot in 1 dollar coin.(muthada yg suruh ! haa!)

open door, teacher talking...*bodoh sial* hahahahah

crack us up!!

Step fAIRytale...

Bilik menyusu Kan BAYI...HAHAHA!

bABY 1...

Baby 2 ...was rape instead...see the hand on ma butt...

violent pe kang2...tk semestinyer pakai dress tk bleh Rock pe!!

Our man. haa! Our daddy.

otw home.

My bby gurl siti. I love u.

Mr azman..

Siti was fasting....hee! n it was fun...murtada u noe i noe.

2 LINE KEPE ct?

bile mau upgrade?

Class mates

haiz haiz haiz

shy shy shy

SITI ?STUDY EH?? Haiz...

Simply Blck.

Love siti's dress/

Wen 2 belo meet ...well they find another... u!

NIKMAT WOI MKN ICE CREAM.ps siti maintain ar..haha!

NOTHING BEATS ICE-CREAM!

Siti said sumting n it make me laugh.

Siti Sopan nahh Makan....lol!

No u guys the ice cream is not dripping.

atiqah....asall mcm lost gituk...saiii ehhh...hahaha!

blow kiss to u all ar.

Father Daughter,

the volunteered camera gurl. hee!

ni lah zaman kita dulu makan ice cream tepi longkang..wakaka!

Yani??See what hv u done!

Ma Adorable Little Kiddies muack muacks

haha presenting awa ninja aka anne jane molly..

presenting iman mutiara aka anne jane molly

NAK SANGAT korek lubang hidung aku!!!!

I cant seem to sleep peacefully..haiz siti siti..

Siti gave me a massage..thanks eh??

MATH CLASS ..so jaded..12 t0 6.

What Happen Siti?? U heard what? Who? Serious? haha! shh!! U noe i noe!!

O level ...5 points...(dream on u dreamer....)

YEHH!! yani didnt make us laugh!! We finally maintain a smile!!

THE MAFIA FAMILY.HAHA!

of COS i was shock mannn...wah duhh siti....(sweet revenge...*kening ziana zain*)

I wish i knew siti was a PEVERTIC GIRL

Was flushing till i realize a flash...siakkkk! *SIUL BUDDUH* HAA!

see! see !muthada Gdgurl gone bad.

2009-07-20T08:28:00.000-07:00

Whats up with the PLASTIC knife man? Anjat gd gurl siti!
Suke Mr Laughing gas Kita!

eeeee

Kiute

Whatever happen to wan kempis? ke kecut? oppsite of kembang lah!Phm kn!

Siti got No mask for H1n1..Kesian!

Lol!

Dont u ever mess with an hnugy arab!

Saper 2 yg amk nie tahnk u darling.

Siti belo.Awa dah lame tawu.

The black n white limited editions.

Her hair seem short.n siti look cute/

Ma fave candy shot.CAN NEVER SEEM TO MAINTAIN a smile wen yani arroud.haha!

Serious kuar toliet korang tk der..Kita membawa diri go kelas.hahah!Pas tu kene mara!

OI!

nARI KITA lihat ramai mengemari bunga palsu

Ms nuarni macam cocok hidung muthada or scolding him.be iman sedih.

Pak sanggup katekn. tk bleh tahan ketawa.

Nice !!!who take...??wat?? cant hear u! lol

Gurl yg ader...sorry guysss... huhu

Ni really sweet!part 1

Sweet n sour klaka rabak part 2

Wakaka now we can see ...IT IN THE GENESSS ...haa!

Lough out loud part3

Crack us up la murtadha!

SUMPAH awa kate ni ma fave!

heh steam ke kak! eh dik! lol

Iman adalah mutiara part 1

yani are u ok are u ok are u ok yani? part 2 haa!

step tau mane tempat dier jekk smua org! part 1

Siti nk tunjuk2 sendiri tktawu!part2

part3

Sit found out i maself don noe where is it.thanks eh! haa!
part4

part 5

Iman n utt part 1

FART 2.

Fart 3 heee!

Ni style tk tawu kenape...

NI PALING style obivously.Muka tk bersalah sey haa!

Serious ma second fave shot!

yani fliying iman trying to.me n siti cant tahan already.uut n murthada turning away while laughinh.Except u cans ee utt laughing n running away the same time clearly.

cool

fart over.

love it

FEELING MAN.both me n muthada raise our leg hahahah!

kt cityhall.waiting for mr u noe who hahah! rite ct.

k habis ! Love ua ll so much!

2009-07-18T00:13:00.000-07:00